Going back home!

I'm going to Italy on thursday, work on the passport process, and in two days hope to be back in Brazil. I can't wait to be back home, my apartment has been refurnished, it has new area constructed with a barbecue area and they've fixed some leaking issues as well. Also, my best friend is moving next door, his apartment is almost finished and he should be moving as soon as I get home. It will be so nice to have him next door, he plays poker too and owns a stock market company. He always tried to convince me to let him teach me about  stock market, at least now having him next door, we will have time to discuss a lot of things.

I didn't put as much volume as I wanted this month, played around 2.200 games so far, I know i can do much more than that, hopefully i will set some goals for next year, cause I will have a lot of stuff going on December. Getting pretty confident, results are showing up and I'm starting to deal with variance a lot better. Definitely one of the things i have to master is tilt control. I used to tilt a lot more before, and my game was gone with it, not that I don't tilt anymore, it just the way I deal with it nowadays. I just take deep breaths, and remember the times I run good, and think that day will eventually come again.

Internet Issues...

I'm having a lot of issues with the internet here in my condo in London, they've announced that the internet will be changed by friday. Yestersday i tried to start a session, but internet went down right after i've registered for 30 games. I got pretty tilted, one thing that stress me much than losing a 80/20 is losing to internet connection. Your money is already there and there's nothing you can do about it.

Enough with the complaining, i've been pretty consistent with the sngs lately, this month i have an average profit of $1 per game, which is pretty nice for these limits. Also i feel that im not rushed through decisions anymore, and everything feels more smooth, even with 30 tables opened.

Next week, im off to Italy again, gonna work on the italian passport process, gonna be a quick trip, mostly 2 days, then I'll go back to Brazil. Kinda miss my home, my girlfriend and my dog. I've been out of home for more than a month, it will be good to be back.

The Path

I believe in talents, but mostly i believe in dedication and hard work. My father always said to me, to become a good surgeon, one must do 10.000 surgeries, there is no such thing as a master surgeon within his  first 100 surgeries, no one can accomplish that. "Hard work is what makes a man noble" he always said this quote to me. So i've tried to raise my volume, 30 tables instead of the 24, it was a disaster at first, lost a lot in the first 2 hours of the session, but as I was becoming more aware of the things going on, I decided not to give up and try for a bit longer, so yesterday i did a 8 hours stretch session playing 262 games, and it did payoff at the end. I really needed to do that, for my self, my consciousness, i felt it was the right time, after studying a lot lately i decided to give myself that chance. I missed some things with my family and girlfriend, but your state of mind and spirit after a long day of work compensates it a bit. I miss my Musashi book. It is a book i read when i was going through one of the toughest times i've ever had in life. It's a beautiful story about a man building his character and becoming the best samurai of all times. Its a very long book, but it is very well written and it is pleasant to read, def recommend it to anyone. So, im happy with my progress, happy with my dedication and hard work. I still recognize i have a lot to learn, but it is good to know that you are on the right track and success will come along.

I'll leave you some quotes from the book.

"Study strategy over the years and achieve the spirit of the warrior. Today is victory over yourself of yesterday; tomorrow is your victory over lesser men."

"In fighting and in everyday life you should be determined though calm. Meet the situation without tenseness yet not recklessly, your spirit settled yet unbiased. An elevated spirit is weak and a low spirit is weak. Do not let the enemy see your spirit."

Breaking Even...

So pretty much played 1k games and did breakeven at the end, didnt have much help from the internet here in London, its the second time it goes down for quite a while, making me lose total of 48 buy-ins, notting much I can do about it. Getting much more confident, and i think i'll have a better month than last one, definetely will try to put more volume!

Life has been going pretty well, Im much more fit now, lost like 4 kilos in these 3 weeks. My girlfriend is still here in London, and we are having a great time toghether.